How Do You Say Goodbye?
How do you say goodbye
to one you've loved and felt so close
in mind and heart
and found the one from whom you never want to part?
How can you do it when all within begins to weep
and
protest in painful tones of the desire to keep?
How do you say goodbye?
How can you love deny?
How renounce its poignant
hunger to embrace
and draw unto self the splendor of her face --
and there, there to lay upon her wanting lips
a kiss?
How could I have done this thing and hurt her so like this,
distrusting of her love?
But in my heart know I
that even were this one, so dear,
to bid me
come to her, and live with her in ecstasy --
how could I come with what I've done? Though being there,
my
bliss would surely end this outcry of despair --
Oh how my heart does break!
O God! the pain! O why?
Why this faltering questioning,
this wondering doubt?
If I did what's right, should not I be without
this hurt, this depth of sorrow that takes hold
of me,
and fills my very soul with naught else but misery --
the burden of my guilt?
But this now tells me by
the pain I know inside... how wrong,
how wrong I was,
how terribly mistaken. And this because
my words and actions cut so deep the bitterest groove
that
out its unscaled depths forgiveness may not move.
I dont deserve her love.
Down deep I know that I --
and I alone -- I am
to blame for what was sown.
I cannot understand why, or how, I've thrown
this ruin on our love -- caused such bitterness
of pain.
My only hope is that somehow her love can rise again
and take me back in grace.
It is, you know, a lie:
you cannot turn your back on one
you love and say
you do not feel it. It wounds when you betray --
wounds not just the one you love, but YOU! Yourself!
Your soul!
Then in Hell you find yourself -- broken and no longer whole.
You Fool! You said goodbye!
